Thursday, January 17, 2019

BEAUTIFUL

Shapeless body. Uneven skin. Ugly smile. Just some of the many thoughts I have had when looking at a photo of me. For as long as I can remember, I have dissected every photo of myself, picking out all the imperfections in front of me, just insecurity after insecurity. It just drives me mad sometimes, that I can’t look perfect in every photo, or look as airbrushed as other people do. 


I am incredibly fussy when it comes to photos of myself. I will pick out the smallest imperfections and treat them as though they will be the sole focus of the photo. I always imagine people looking at pictures of myself with a magnifying glass, inspecting every little detail, when of course this is not the case. No one knows my fussiness like my other half, Peter! Nine times out of ten, he is the person behind the camera. My camera roll is full of mini “photoshoots” around campus or London, photos that, even though probably look absolutely fine to everyone else, but to me are either embarrassing or hideous. And I want to start changing these thoughts that I have about myself. 

This month, I reached out to my friend Sansy, someone I used to go to school with who also attends the same university as I did. She does photography on the side and I wanted her to photograph me. I am so happy with how these photos turned out! For once in a long time, I am looking at photos of me and not cringing at how bad I think I look. It’s really difficult for me to look at photos of myself and not feel very critical with what is in front of me. Of course, there are things that I can pick out that I don’t like, but I am trying to focus on being a lot more positive with the way I look. (Just want to say thank you to Sansy for taking my photos! For anyone interested in having their photos taken by Sansy, check out her Instagram page here)! 



As part of my resolutions of 2019, I have decided that I need start embracing my imperfections because they aren’t going anywhere any time soon! I need to start realising that I don’t need to have curves, perfectly airbrushed skin or hair that behaves to be beautiful (sorry for being cheesy). This year I am going to make more of an effort to not pick apart every photo of me. I am hoping that by doing this, I will start to feel a lot less insecure. 

Thank you for reading! 

B x 
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